hmmm 24 1/2

2016 ! JULY

It's JULY !!!! why the time just can't stop for awhile. [joking]
well one month left become officially 25
can you imagine that 25 is the half of 50. Just can't imagine what would happen in the next 25 years of my life. what would I become ? Am I following my dreams ? I don't know. I could just hoping and imagine for the time being.

Being 25, some of my friend are married, some are still chasing dreams, some even has their own children. What am I doing here. Is not that I am envy. I am still single, still a student, still have not get a stable job. But I can see people is living their life. I am just a bit lost right now. Being 25, is putting me quite a lot of pressure. People starts asking do you have a boyfriend ? Are you going to graduate soon ? Still staying in your own home ? When are you going to start to get a job ?

Question after question. I could just smile and answered them. No.
Sometimes, I do feel depressed about it. Is this what I want ?
My answer always changed because of my emotion.
Telling myself to hang on. Everything would be ok once you graduate. (finger crossed).
Deep down inside, I just hope I would finish asap !

Well, I know all of these is just temporary.
There is new every morning.
I just need to think positively and MOVE on !

All the best ! One month to 25 ~
oh my 25 !

4/11/2015

Good evening, It's November !!

没想到，这么快又到十一月了。 时间过得真的好快。

2015年，有可不同，进步？

我想最大的改变就是

知道自己的弱点

勇于面对

依靠神

相信祂给你的一切

虽然我不是100%完全接受

可是慢慢的进步当中

相信自己 会变得更好 

我当然希望

我也能祝福其他人

用我所拥有的

祝福其他人

这也是我时常要提醒自己

不要和别人比较

看看自己拥有的

别人未必有

别人拥有的

我没有

大家就互相合作嘛

很少上来这

很忙

可是我还是希望我能把每天的感受

记录下来

给未来的40岁的我。看看

年轻时的天真

那股傻气

还蛮好笑的吧

2015 August

Hi, it's been a long time. Almost one and half years... 
I think this is a traditional for me to post a blog once a year ..  huh ..

Anyway, How are you my blog.. I know this is kind of silly... BUT

when I read what I had post for the past few years.. I didnt know I was so emotional. A part of me that always being depressed... Yeah, I was a teen...

Guess .. This year is 24 for me.. I just had my celebration for a few days ago. This lead me to think.. what is going to be in the future.. my plans.. as Malaysia 2015... Is the worse year ever.. the currency falling, the  unstable political status .. what is going to be in 2016.. it never going to be good ... But there's still hope...2016 you r going to be good.. I  hope ...

I know I dont express well. Often people know me was just part of me.. deep inside I am still sensitive and emotional... SOMETIMES.. I try to improve and challenge myself everyday to be positive.. + thinking...
That's what I need..

during 2015, there is a huge changes in our family and I have to take up work- housework and also studies together.. I kind of uncomfortable at first and gradually I m used to it.. sometimes I use this as an excuse just to push away the things I dont want to do .. BAD ...

well, chill .... I am going to see you next time my blog

Bye..

2014 ~~ WOW

hey, I've been away from this blog for a very long time. WHY ?
most probably that 2013 was a really busy year for me and of course the year that brought me to the next level of my life- I had graduated from my degree. Trust me, the last year of my degree was like a war. haha  I keep on refresh on my memory about 2013 what I get were study, graduate and of course HOLIDAY. haha..

but what I really want to say is 2013 was a really amazing year for me and God leads me when I feeling kind of lost, many choices and decisions needed to make especially either working or pursue studying..I don't know.. I just hope not to make a decision that regrets me for the rest of my life...Guess what..Finally, a decision was made..I'm currently in USM, Penang which is my hometown.. USM is one of the top 3 universities in Malaysia.. It is a great chance for me besides I think I would be easier to stay nearer to my house hahaa so that I could save more money..

ok, Let's say 2014.. I can't believe .. It's February of 2014. wow ~
In the begining of  the year, I really hope that I would like to say this year will be a very different year for me and my family. First of all, now I had graduated, away from my friends T T( kind of missing them always), and I have to get used to the new environment for postgrads.. I think is kind of challenging year for me especially you don't know what will happen in such a new environment. anyway, I will get used to the environment after some time..second, my bro!!!! he is going to fly to the states on this coming Aug for his degree.. oww seriously I am going to miss him badly..there is no one I could talk to and of course teasing to.. haha.. I just does not used to when he is not around.. (I will facetime with him when I am free hahaha..)

well, it's 2014.. I am here to wish everybody a very happy new year and happy chinese new year !!!
see you ~

谈心时段

好久没上来了吧
对啊，这两个月就这样的生活着
生活没有太大的起伏
是该说幸运吗 ？

大二就快结束即将进入大三..
时间流逝啊
在这间大学也快四年了..从预备班到现在
自己最庆幸自己有三位很好的室友
还有一群合得来的朋友

奇迹般的，我们四位在很特殊的情况下
变成室友
而且性格不单很合，生活习惯各自不同但大家可以彼此退让
所以都不是一个问题
好吧，快四年了
当然大致上性格，习惯都了解得差不多了
就在昨天，刚好不怎么睡得着
兴起谈起一些话题
在朋友之间最尴尬的也只有男女之间的问题吧
21岁了，刚好成年
哈哈..只能对自己说这是避不开的吧
既然大家那么熟了
就聊开了..

了解了大家所喜欢的对象特质不一样
这是当然的
总觉得好笑
再想想所想像的和未来真正的 或许差别会很大吧
不过觉得这是一段让我拥有美好的时刻
这样的时间也不少了
祝大家有美好的未来
也对自己的未来充满好奇 呵呵

爸，生日快乐

今天
低落
虽然我知道回来上课
本来就是责任
可是觉得今天应该要在家的

今天可是个特别的日子
对于其他人来说
可能是一个普普通通的一天
对我还是觉得重要的

我知道自己不曾努力
这一次
我希望我能努力
把这一份努力
当做一份大礼给今天的主角

爸，生日快乐 

我会努力的
会懂事
不会让你担心

希望你一直身体健康
永远在我身边
虽然今天无法与你庆祝
我会铭记在心
你对我的好好好 ~~

爱你哦 哈哈 ~~

醒

从前从不感觉如此
离开一个地方
是如此的不甘、不舍
是什么让我有如此的变化
是看透了
成熟了
明白了
什么对我来说
才是值得去珍惜、去爱护

原本以为的完美
原来都是表面的一切功夫
每靠近一步
越是看得透
现在看清后
时时警醒、提醒自己
不要看一时的好
那些好不是真的好

眼睛要亮
清楚自己要的
这样就不会后悔
没有遗憾